A tough week.

Sometimes God takes us down roads in our life that we may not understand. Roads that test your strength and sometimes your faith. Never-the-less, we still put on our shoes no matter how painful they may be and we walk, run, crawl. We walk alone or with family, and when our road becomes too tough we pray that God will carry us. I am talking about mom. She was diagnosed with cancer over 5 years ago had her tumor removed and received treatment only to have it return years later. It's now been nearly 2 years of intensive radiation and chemotherapy and 1 major surgery. The side effects of chemo are terribly awful that no one should ever have to go through or see a family member endure.
Right now my mom lays in a hospital bed in ICU recovering from surgery to remove a tumor on her skull and a "surprise" one on her spinal column. This won't be the end of her fight with cancer for she still has tumors on her lung, liver, adrenal gland, back bone and brain. There's been times where she's wanted to "throw in the towel" but she's kept going. Now, with more than a month of not receiving chemo she's faced yet again with the decision of whether or not resume treatments. Although it's hard for me to understand, I don't blame her for feeling so indecisive. God will let my mom know what she needs to do. It's in Him where we put our trust.

Dear mom,

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I will never understand your journey for I've never walked in your shoes. I tell you everything will be alright (even though I may not know) because I don't know what else to say. I want to say or do something to make all that you're going through easier and painless. But I don't know of any. Instead, I tell you that I love you because that's all I know right now. You are a vision of strength, a picture of beauty and I am so thankful to you for shaping me into the woman and mother I am. I know your road must continue and we will be here for you every step of the way comforting you and loving you. I know you have some tough choices ahead of you and I pray that God gives you a clear mind and honest heart to make the best decision. We all want what YOU want.

I love you!